Tuesday, January 31, 2012
My First Blog
So.... I am new to all this blogging stuff. I usually keep people posted about my life via Facebook or texting but thanks to my amazing sister and mom (they created this for me), I am going to start blogging daily (maybe even hourly) things that come to my mind about my recovery. I had a relapse over the weekend in Las Vegas. I feel terrible for it. The worst thing is that I didn't even go see my sister and her kids. That's my addiction kicking in, especially when I know I am in Vegas. In the back of my mind before I even left for Vegas, I thought that MAYBE I will relapse, but it definitely wasn't my plan. Sure enough, I did. I can only learn from this and try to become a much stronger person. So for my first posting on here, here's to a better life. A sober life. I may, from time to time have relapses. I HOPE I don't, but I will blog about it all on here as my life happens. Feel free to have others follow this blog, especially if you know of anyone struggling with addiction that might be able to use what I blog about to help them. Much love.... especially to Sherry and Mom for setting this up for me.
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Golden, you have my support and prayers. Sherry has always been like a sister to me so that makes you my surrogate little brother. One piece of advice--by thinking "I might relapse," the door remains open. One of the best things I learned is to speak to yourself as though you are right now what you want to become. You ARE sober. You ARE strong. You ARE in full control.
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Nicole
And PS Nicole, I will always be your surrogate little brother ;-)
DeleteThanks Nicole and I do agree with you about the "might relapse" thing but I did that earlier and now that I did actually relapse, I feel even worse. I will be an addict for my entire life. The temptation will always be there but it will get easier and easier and time goes by. I have to get back to taking things a day at a time again. Glad you are on here and feel free to post anytime! This is going to be a great thing!
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I am so glad you started (or your sis for you) a blog- It will be great and hopefully a place to get thoughts out of your head- and a great journal to look back on later.
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ReplyDeleteI kinda agree with Nicole, but I'm a though love kind of girl. Yes you need to always recognize that you are an addict BUT I think if you let that "maybe" creep in, it becomes super easy to justify it if or when it happens. You NEED to feel BAD..really BAD when it happens, because if not it will become to easy to do it again....and again. Clearly I have no idea how incredibly hard this must be, so I guess my advice is about as good as someone who tells you how to raise your kids when you don't have any... but I wanted to get my two cents in. We all want the best for you, and your amazing little men!!
Great way to open up and talk about things... I know addiction can be VERY TOUGH... You have such an amazing family and I think it's great to see everyone wanting to step in and help... I know you can do it!! You said one thing that stood out, and that was "Heres to a better life. A sober life"... You can do this Goldie!! Keep up on all of your hard work!! Heavenly Father knows you and He loves you... We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers... ~The Penas~
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, NO MORE VEGAS!!! :) I'm impressed with how open you are about all this- that alone will bring you so much success! The hardest part of any startover is the admitting part- and you're doing really good with that :) Good luck man!
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